hello everyone! During the past few months I've been getting so many emails/ messages about what's going on with my marriage. I couldn't make my self to answer your questions then, but now I will.
Well, for the last few years my marriage wasn't that great. I thought that for the years we were together, the love we have for each other, and our kids that we could fix what was wrong with it. As you all know I went to live in the Philippines for 16months with my 2 little ones. But last year when my then husband visited us I knew then that our marriage WAS not going to work out anymore. I am not perfect and i never claim to be one, i know i made mistakes but I don't think I deserve to be lied to and be deceived. So by July 2007, I decided to come back to America and file for divorce this way we can both be free from each other while we are still civil to each other. I was still hoping that Patrick and I can fix our problems. So we packed our bags and me and my 2kids were flying back to America...August 29.2007.
August 22,2007 We were still in Baguio City, I get this im on yahoo from someone. I didn't know who it was until after i logged off and start my morning rituals 
. So I went back online that night and I im that person back and i asked if it is who i think it was. HAHAHHA! He was someone I met when I was in elementary 1976 to be exact. Small world huh! He is 2years older than me. When I was in high school he used to send me love letters. I don't know why i never dated him, liked him too, but I dated someone else. Then when I was in college(2nd year) He came to visit me, I was shocked, but then again I was dating the same guy I was with since high school. I remember going to Jolibee at CM recto near UE with him. Well after that lunch, we didn't see each other again. That was 1983. Then like i said in the beginning of this part, he IM me on yahoo. Well we were chatting and he asked how's NY and I told him I was in Baguio and that I was going back to NY in a few days. He didn't believe me that I was in the Philippines. So he asked for my number and not even a minute passed and my phone was ringing. It was HIM, we talked for a while and he asked if he can visit before I go. I was a little hesitant. I don't go with out with guys since I got married 20years ago. But he kept saying , for old times sake. So we agreed to meet Aug. 26 (Sunday)for lunch at SM Baguio, he was coming from Manaoag. I had to asked few of my friends and family if that was a good decision, like I said I was still married and I do not want to do anything to disrespect the vow I made even if I know my marriage was ending anyway. My friends and family said that I shouldn't close my doors to anyone, besides we were good friends before, nothing wrong with that they all said. That Sunday morning I was just about to cancel it, but then i received a text from HIM that he is already in Baguio. Well too late to cancel, he took his time out of his busy work schedule to meet me for lunch and it wouldn't be fair to cancel at the very last minute. So with My niece I went to SM, on the way there i kept telling my niece that maybe I shouldn't go, what if my husband finds out? But I ended up seeing him. the moment I saw him, something inside of me felt weird. i just couldn't explain what it was. He is still very good looking and his Ilocano improved hahahhaha! So we talked, walked, eat and walked some more. I t felt weird that I didn't see him for 24years and we connected right away. He was very much a Gentleman, very soft spoken, and very caring. Then at 8pm, he dropped me off at my place and he went back home. the next day (Monday)we left for Manila. All the way to Manila he was sending me texts , he asked if he can follow us there, I said sure. Actually, i thought he was just teasing me, but early Tuesday morning He was there. I was falling in love, but i kept telling myself this will go away. well...........
. So I went back online that night and I im that person back and i asked if it is who i think it was. HAHAHHA! He was someone I met when I was in elementary 1976 to be exact. Small world huh! He is 2years older than me. When I was in high school he used to send me love letters. I don't know why i never dated him, liked him too, but I dated someone else. Then when I was in college(2nd year) He came to visit me, I was shocked, but then again I was dating the same guy I was with since high school. I remember going to Jolibee at CM recto near UE with him. Well after that lunch, we didn't see each other again. That was 1983. Then like i said in the beginning of this part, he IM me on yahoo. Well we were chatting and he asked how's NY and I told him I was in Baguio and that I was going back to NY in a few days. He didn't believe me that I was in the Philippines. So he asked for my number and not even a minute passed and my phone was ringing. It was HIM, we talked for a while and he asked if he can visit before I go. I was a little hesitant. I don't go with out with guys since I got married 20years ago. But he kept saying , for old times sake. So we agreed to meet Aug. 26 (Sunday)for lunch at SM Baguio, he was coming from Manaoag. I had to asked few of my friends and family if that was a good decision, like I said I was still married and I do not want to do anything to disrespect the vow I made even if I know my marriage was ending anyway. My friends and family said that I shouldn't close my doors to anyone, besides we were good friends before, nothing wrong with that they all said. That Sunday morning I was just about to cancel it, but then i received a text from HIM that he is already in Baguio. Well too late to cancel, he took his time out of his busy work schedule to meet me for lunch and it wouldn't be fair to cancel at the very last minute. So with My niece I went to SM, on the way there i kept telling my niece that maybe I shouldn't go, what if my husband finds out? But I ended up seeing him. the moment I saw him, something inside of me felt weird. i just couldn't explain what it was. He is still very good looking and his Ilocano improved hahahhaha! So we talked, walked, eat and walked some more. I t felt weird that I didn't see him for 24years and we connected right away. He was very much a Gentleman, very soft spoken, and very caring. Then at 8pm, he dropped me off at my place and he went back home. the next day (Monday)we left for Manila. All the way to Manila he was sending me texts , he asked if he can follow us there, I said sure. Actually, i thought he was just teasing me, but early Tuesday morning He was there. I was falling in love, but i kept telling myself this will go away. well...........Aug 29, 2007 Our flight was at 12:30pm, HE went with us to the airport. I couldn't say goodbye to him. He was crying, I was so overwhelmed with emotions. Sad to say we parted ways.
Then I was back in the US again with my family, I was so happy when I saw my son at the airport. My oldest didn't want to live in the Philippines so he stayed with his dad. My husband was there to meet us too, but I wasn't sure if he was even happy to see me. I found out a lot of things about my husband after I came back. Enough to really make me crazy. So we decided that it is best we separate, divorce, part ways...etc. It was a tough decision, but it has to be done. I accepted the fact that my marriage was over. Then 2weeks ago, I found out that Patrick was having an affair with another girl from the Philippines. Hurts? hell yes, because even if we are not a couple anymore, of all people to betray me I did not expect him to do this to me. They have been bf/gf since the beginning of 2007. Patrick has been denying that there is another woman, but deep in my heart I knew there was another woman. I saw pictures of them, their blogs, and it hurts. We made a promise when we got married that when time comes and we don't love each other anymore , we tell each other not lie. It hurts a great deal.
I am thankful for everyone who have been so supportive during this ordeal. The encouraging words from my family, I am glad no one said we told you so. Thank you! To mng. elvie and mng reynal and my niece kristl, my nepheews Kevin and Kerwin. My sister in the Philippines, Mng Elvie for sending me very inspiring text, Knoll & Romy for listening. Mom I know even if you are not here with me, you are always thinking about me and my kids. Mng.Ped for just being there. My 3kids, esp my oldest for being so brave and I am so sorry J if once in a while you have to put up with me crying, but you always say the right things to me. My friends in the Philippines, Lynn for the emails, Julie, Pastor Gilbert for including me in your prayers. Mng. Max, Ate Annie, Amor and JV for all the help without you guys, I wouldn't have been able to meet my friend in Baguio before I came back here. Charm for the last day in Baguio, you are one great kid. Josei and Carol, they don't know yet about the break up of my marriage but they were there with me up to the last day in Baguio. Lastly, Thank you Ed for being my one true friend, for listening to all my complaints, you never judge me. You let me in to your life without any question. I hope that soon we can be together and continue the journey of life together with our children(all 6 of them).
I would also like to thank you Patrick for the years we were together, for the 3 precious kids. It's too bad that after 20 years, I am not worth anything to you. But I am not bitter about it, life goes on, it has to. I hope that your relationship with Miss B last for a long time. I really do. From now on you're only someone that I used to love.
I am thankful for everyone who have been so supportive during this ordeal. The encouraging words from my family, I am glad no one said we told you so. Thank you! To mng. elvie and mng reynal and my niece kristl, my nepheews Kevin and Kerwin. My sister in the Philippines, Mng Elvie for sending me very inspiring text, Knoll & Romy for listening. Mom I know even if you are not here with me, you are always thinking about me and my kids. Mng.Ped for just being there. My 3kids, esp my oldest for being so brave and I am so sorry J if once in a while you have to put up with me crying, but you always say the right things to me. My friends in the Philippines, Lynn for the emails, Julie, Pastor Gilbert for including me in your prayers. Mng. Max, Ate Annie, Amor and JV for all the help without you guys, I wouldn't have been able to meet my friend in Baguio before I came back here. Charm for the last day in Baguio, you are one great kid. Josei and Carol, they don't know yet about the break up of my marriage but they were there with me up to the last day in Baguio. Lastly, Thank you Ed for being my one true friend, for listening to all my complaints, you never judge me. You let me in to your life without any question. I hope that soon we can be together and continue the journey of life together with our children(all 6 of them).
I would also like to thank you Patrick for the years we were together, for the 3 precious kids. It's too bad that after 20 years, I am not worth anything to you. But I am not bitter about it, life goes on, it has to. I hope that your relationship with Miss B last for a long time. I really do. From now on you're only someone that I used to love.
Well anyway, I believe that things do happen for a reason. The break up of my marriage did open new doors for me. I never thought that I would fall in love again, but I am falling in love with my old friend. We know that the road ahead is not that easy for us, but we are older, hopefully wiser now. Maybe LOVE is lovelier the 2ND time around. He is very supportive, he knows the situation I am in now. He is willing to wait for me for as long as it takes, for us to be together again. It is hard, he is in the Philippines and I am here. But thanks for technology, we get to chat online except now because of the storm that just hit the Philippines and it's causing problems with his DSL...I bet you are all wondering who HE is....some of you know him.
June 3,2008
I think I will finally post this blog...You are all welcome to make comments good and or bad. if you have any question(s) feel free to ask me ok!
June 3,2008
I think I will finally post this blog...You are all welcome to make comments good and or bad. if you have any question(s) feel free to ask me ok!
